i felt like it came out of nowhere.
i don't think he knows what he's doing
i know it's a mistake.
i know we are supposed to be together.
i cried harder than i've ever cried before.
he cried.
he never cries.
does that mean something?
does that mean he still loves me and still has feelings for me?
does that mean he does doubt his decision?
i simply said, "no." at first
i didn't want to break up
i don't want to break up
i remember how he used to love me
he used to love me more than i loved him
he used to want to make me happy
never wanted to disappoint me
he used to miss me
he used to make me feel attractive
i love him so much.
so many things are running through my mind.
i knew a long time ago that i wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.
i think about him constantly
i want to make him happy
i want him to share with me
i want him to trust me
he's the only one i want to fall asleep holding.
he's the only one i want to wake up with.
i love waking up in the middle of the night and seeing him next to me.
i love his smell
his smile
his laugh
i love everything about him.
i just wish he loved me the same way.
